Becoming My Own Body Goals



Summer 2018

 I never thought I would incorporate working out into my daily routine but here I am three
- four days a week in the gym. I started working out because I wasn’t truly happy with my body, I knew there were health benefits and I desired a more womanly body. Caring about my health and fitness has become second nature to me now.

I am so am amazed by the human body’s ability to gain & lose weight so quickly. While I
was pregnant I gained 60lbs due to toxemia and was able to lose the weight within 2months post-pregnancy with every minimal working out. Since then my weight has fluctuated, sometimes I’m really skinny and other times I have a more curvy figure. I noticed my weight change but I did not know what I could do to manage it since I knew nothing about working out, the gym or anything pertaining to being fit. Truth is, I wasn’t really happy with my body I was just content. I had no curves and I didn’t feel as if my body was womanly/desirable. Working out has helped to boost my confidence & given me more energy. When you look good you feel good too!




Summer 2013

My day typically begins at 6am and is slowing down around 9pm, some days I forget to eat due to me always being on the go. I remember an ex-boyfriend telling me I was so skinny I looked like a balloon on a string. As hurtful as that was, I knew it was true. I wore a size 0 in pants and could hula hoop with Cheerio. We sat down and talked about what my body goals were and together came up with a plan on how to get me to my desired body without getting cosmetic surgery. I seriously considered going under the knife. I had no booty, no breast and no curves. It’s very hard struggling with your body image and opening Instagram and continuously seeing beautiful women with the most amazing bodies, some sculpted by a doctor-others natural and made in the gym. I had to keep reminding myself that “I am enough.” Positive affirmations really do work to help build self-confidence.

Fall 2016

Two years ago, I received a promotion and got a desk job, no more running around all day at work. I was now behind a computer snacking all day. This lead to me gaining 15lbs, which wasn’t bad but it wasn’t necessarily a good thing either. I mean yeah, I now had the curvy figure I desired but I also could no longer fit my clothes, my face was fat and I had a pudgy belly. I loved my new body but I hated my stomach and found myself covering my stomach in every picture. I was even more self-conscious during this time than before.

Fast forward to 2018 and I’m now, once again, back to my pre-baby weight. I’m still working out frequently to become my own body goals, building mass & muscle but at my own pace. No more looking on the explore page trying to find my motivation to get fit. I still get on IG and see those women with perfect bodies but this time around I don’t compare myself to them. The difference between now and my mind set years ago, is my ability to love myself and not let society tell me what’s desirable & sexy.